I don't want to make lemonade.
Sometimes I need (we need) to soak in and appreciate the beauty of a lemon rather than trying to morph it into something else.
Two people have died that I have close personal connections with in the last two days. Yesterday an older gentleman in his 80s, and today a baby boy less than two hours old. Again, I don't want to make lemonade, I just want to sit with these lemons and cry. And I have cried for both of these two.
Death is something that I have a hard time with. Not my personal inevitable passing from this earth. I am living the best life I can, saying a strong "YES" to what brings joy into my life, and keeping tabs on the other things in an attempt to not let it clutter up the amazing life I have. It is those for whom I love and care deeply about that death brings a *smack* of sadness and deep loss just at the idea of losing people close to me.
These two that have died in the last two days bring an interesting perspective to death. On many levels it is easier for us to comprehend an older mans passing than that of a tiny babe. "He's had a full and wonderful life. He was able to do so many things, travel, and have a place on the river and ... He and his wife had such a beautiful house looking out on the woods." What is there to say about the little one? There is no all encompassing statement that fits. Nor should there be. He was born into this world crying and left the world wrapped in the arms of his parents who were able to kiss and embrace and love on the little one just the way he should be loved on.
I get that it is easier to deal with an older person dying. However, BOTH families feel loss, sorrow, and an emptiness that these two beautiful beings are leaving in their hearts. And at the same time, BOTH families feel joy from having hugged and spent time with each of these two.
My heart is heavy for these families.
Sometimes we absolutely must see the lemons. Take a deep, strong look at the lemons and not try to find the good in the situation. The situation is what it is. It doesn't need a cliche to tie it in a bow, it doesn't need life lesson attached to it, the situation is. It just is. It is.
